എന്റെ കുഞ്ഞൂസിനു നിന്റെ അമ്മ.....To My Kunju from your Amma......

Kunju
Today we went for Chirstmas celeberation.....It was a nice party.....You were excited as you saw Santa..He gave you sweets....You were happy.....My home sold yesterday.....I feel happy in someway and more sad in someway.....Your mammama had to sell it anyway....But we were very much attached to home.....We never had any another home .......I have lot of sweet memories to cherish with it.....I was born there...Not in that exact home but it was in the same place.....We built this home before 19 years where the old home was......Me , your grandpa, grandmother, perammachi,acha everybody lived there for 19 years in the new home.....We had lot of memories about your grandpa....I think he would be the best grandpa in the world if he would have been alive...We loved him very much...He was an ambitious man....He was a nice human being..... he was there for any help for everybody.....He used to give advice to people how to face the difficulties in life...you know now my eyes are wet...you will come to know the reason in future.........we had lot of good things and bad things when we stayed at that home....I cannot imagine a home of mine other than that......Me and your Perammachi were together always in school, sleep and studies......We were always together ...ohhh everything is full of nice memories..... ..We used to sing prayer song and national anthem at school for 5 years...we started singing together in church....Everybody used to say that nobody can make any difference in our sound.....Some people used to say that they loved to participate in Holy Mass when we sing the choir....I am not boasting about myself....I write everything here is true....Yes I also loved to sing Choir song.....You know what I want to be in my rebirth if we have one, I want to be a Priest who can sing .....Hmmm funny!!!!!!!!.....love you ummah amma and chacha......Chacha is slepping now....you imitate his sleep if I ask you how he sleep....its funny.......

എന്റെ കുഞ്ഞൂസിനു നിന്റെ അമ്മ.....To My Kunju from your Amma......

Kunju
tomorrow we are going to celeberate your chachas Bday......I made cake and a card...tomorrow i am going to prepare vegetable biriyani as we are on lent for christmas...You know I make card for him myself each Bday...I never bought a card for his Bday ever....Today I made a candle shaped card and I am giving it for your behalf too....i worte on the card this words "
To Chacha

You are a candle in our life....you are giving up your life for us, giving brigtness in our life and keeping us in the warmth of your love as a candle does....We are lucky to have you ...Wish you a wonderful Bday.....with lots of kisses and prayers "

your vavas and kunju.

what do you think? how is my words on the card....I made this words myself......I made some vedios of you and posted in a social networking media......Today I happened to see a vedio ....It was about a poor child....their housemaid giving him bath by her feet and pouring water a lot of times to that child face without any mercy....It is haunting me still....I never want to give you in somebodies hand to take care of you.......I prayed for the child.....And winter is going to high and so we are not taking you out frequently.....Doctor said you have some allergies and I think because of that you always feel as you have cold......I tried a lot of home remedies for it but no luck....hmmm ...what else....you give me a lot of kisses before you go to sleep.....I love that.....I am reading books for you everyday before you go to bed....Chacha bought you a lot of books.....I badly want to go home Kunju...Because kuttai is going to get married....i am fasting for Nine days for that.....I am afraid to go because everybody is facing some problems while coming back ,if they exit from here.....I dont know...let God be the decider.....ummmah

എന്റെ കുഞ്ഞൂസിനു നിന്റെ അമ്മ.....To My Kunju from your Amma......

Kunju we are going to celeberate Thanksgiving on this thursday.....I have to make rice and curry....other dishes will prepare others.....And you know the christmas is coming....I love December other than any months.....because December brings all my childhood memories to my mind....We nver had a readymade Christmas crib, stars, tree or a Nativity set....I do remember, I bought a Nativity set when I was studying Msc that can be in 2004 or 2005 ......But still I love those days we hadnt anything...I dont know , why?.....there was something inside us, may be we can call it as the spirit.....Right after finishing our Chritmas term exam, your perammachi, kuttai and me were busy with collecting bamboo sticks, color paper for the star, the grass for the crib etc.....now i dont see the special white grass which grow only on Christmas season.....it grows on the top of the sands on the rocks.....while we come from school we used to roll over the grasses on the sides of the road....now i dont see the grass and the special white flower which grow on the trees.....you know we had to walk 7.5 km to reach school...so everyday we used to walk 15km to get educated....the road was not even good for walking....The road was not tarred..there were no good briges to cross over the streams....it was very difficult to manage if there were a torrential rain happend......The villegers used to stand on the sides of the stream to help children and woman to get reach the other side of the stream....And we had no electricity, no library, not a good road and not a good home to stay....we used to study with kerosene lamps ..i think a lot fo students were coming from a better condition than us...... But still we were in the top students list.....Me and your peramma studied in the same classes...we got good marks when passed out the secondary school..... I got a cash award of 101 rs from that area and a dictionary and a book of Mother Mary from our parish and a book of Basheer from our tution sir.....I was the top from that area and from the parish too.....I think your chachas situation also were same as we had....he was a brilliant student and he studied in a school which all the brilliant students study...he got the admission there by writing a national level exam.....and now you may be wondering why i wrote all these to you....you know you have everything which i was not able to dream at your age....i was not aware of such things even exists in the world.......so i just want to tell you, still a lot of children lives in India in the same condition....so sometimes we may deny some of your desires which can be able to fullfill by us.....You should know the value of hardwork to achieve something you desire...bye for now uhmma we love you.....

എന്റെ കുഞ്ഞൂസിനു നിന്റെ അമ്മ.....

kunju, you are sleeping now...tomorrow we have a bday party of one of our firends son....you like to go bday parties....you make corwn if you get anything look like crown and you have a Jesus statue and you make crown for Jesus and you will show me later....You have a mother Mary's statues too and you like both ......and you sing nithyasahaya mathe song .....you play with the statues rather than playing with other toys...I love that....you may not be knowing the important of Them in your life....you had a flu shot and a vaccination shot day before yesterday....Now you dont cry when you see doctor...you would obey everything whatever the doctor asks to do.....if you are hurt when you play, you would tell me to go to doctor....Doctor said you have to go to dentist...two teeths of yours are not good....your wieght , hight and head curcumferance everything look healthy....you know you are a tall girl...I have to teach you how to go to potty....hmmm nothing more ummah